Thursday, Sept. 25, 2003
Breaking
I don't know whats wrong with my tonight.
I'm irritable and fussy, but I don't know why.
Actually, its been building all week.
I've kinda felt like my mom's avoiding me.
Tonight I figure it was because of my mood, but earlier in the week I don't know why.
Last night everything was fine, but Monday night and tonight, I felt segregated.
I completely understand being tired and wanting to just veg and watch TV, but I feel cut off when they go to their room to watch TV.
Yeah I'm told I can hang out in there if I want to, but the point is that I don't want to.
Just like they wouldn't want to hang out in my room and watch TV.
A person's bedroom in like a private place, the one place that everyone knows is off limits to invasion.
They go back and forth trying to figure out how to put a TV upstairs, they've even come to what sounded like decisions, but nothing ever gets done and it goes back to how it is now.
I know that she doesn't want to deal with my homework, but I don't know what else to do when I need help.
Its not like my teachers care enough to help.
So I ask her, just because she understands things better.
I get to a point where I feel like i"m being punished because I'm going to school.
So I'm being punished for doing what everyone told me to do.
I do try to understand and I try to work things out before I ask for help, but if no one wants to help me, what am I supposed to do?
Failing's not acceptable, so what do I do?
I'd really like to know.
I'm gonna go cry and try ot finish this "simple" astronomy lab.
harlemrain at 9:45 pm